2 posts tagged “love”
So my brother has been ordered to leave for Germany this Tuesday for three years. He is in the army and will be living on the base in Germany, the city escapes me at the moment, but I will edit this when I find out.
I had no idea this would be so hard for me to deal with. My main fear is that I will not see him again. I keep thinking of these images of when we were kids, holding him as a baby and playing with him when we got older. When times got hard and my parents would fight at night, he would always come and crawl into my bed with me. I kept him safe, and now I can’t keep him safe if he resides in another country.
When he was a baby, I always called him “Little bee-bee”, the name stuck and I called him “bee-bee” for a long time. As he got older, I started to shorten the knick-name to just “bee”. I still call him bee to this day, he doesn’t really mind though.
I love my bee. I will miss him being within driving range…I think I’m insecure because I won’t have that assurance anymore. I need to know that the people in my family are doing ok and that if something happens to them I can be there in an instance.
Well, I know I can’t stop him from going. I have to focus on what I do have control over, which is my ability to keep in touch with him. Talking over the internet is going to be the cheapest and easiest way to keep in contact so I will have to use that to the best of my ability. And being on the computer for a lot of the day, every day….I think I will manage just fine. I would like to call him though, but I’m not sure how much my phone plan charges for international calling..gotta check on that.
In closing, I think that this will be a test of family ties and love and patience. I think I actually have a stronger bond with my brother than I thought. I hope that one day we will be close again like when we were kids. It sucks that I realize the hidden bond when he is set to leave for three years, but maybe there’s a reason for that. Time will tell..I will miss you bee, I’m still here for you if you are scared. Please, please stay safe for me.
I just recently looked at my Yafro account, which I have not logged into in quite some time. While I was in there, I noticed that my friend Carrie posted many pictures of her new baby. She named her child Kylie Ann Zirtzlaff. I am going to take this opportunity to share some of the beautiful pictures I saved from her page...
Below to the left Mark cuts the cord! The first of many, many loving fatherly duties :).
For my last picture, I introduce the new Zirzlaff baby, looking at a camera probably for the first time, the scary thing is, the look in her eyes almost tells me she's onto us :). Well, it seems that this story has a long and happy way to go...congratulations to Carrie and Mark on their new baby girl. Remember folks, patience, time, protection, honesty and love. They need it with every molecule in thier body, I hope and wish that every child is fortunate enough to get it from somewhere. In my experience....it is best coming first from mom and dad. Stay true to them.
